Open Letter | Dear Jeremy

This is an open letter and response to a note that the man that I was married to for 9 days left me.

Dear Jeremy,

I was your “wife” for all of 9 days before you physically assaulted me, and why? Because you were upset? Because I provoked you? Because you couldn’t control your anger? Whatever the reason was, it doesn’t matter. The fact of the matter is, you hurt me in a way that only God can fix. I will never feel safe around you. I feel never feel safe near you. I will never be able to be myself near you ever again and that makes me sad.

You were supposed to be my rock. You were supposed to be able to stand strong when I was weak. You were supposed to be my protection. You were supposed to keep my heart safe. You were supposed to make sure that with the help of God our family had everything that we needed.

Since the afternoon when I gave the wedding ring back, I spent many nights and early mornings praying for you. I have spent the same nights and early mornings, crying because how could have I thrown wisdom and insight to the side and went with “what felt right.” How could I have been so foolishly in love with you. You were charming and cunning and you had me bent out of shape. I was ready to stand up to the World, just me and you.

God wrecked those plans.

You were  a lier and a deceiver from the beginning of the relationship.

Yet, I always told you that I wasn’t concerned about what you were keeping from me, if anything, because I know that I am anointed and that what’s done in the dark will be brought to the light.

Every lie and moment of deception that you thought that you got away with was brought to the light.

I thank God for protecting me. I thank God for ending our relationship.

I am not sure if you even think about me. I am not sure if you wish things could have been different. I wonder if you wish that you would have just been honest with me from the beginning. You have a hard past and I accepted everything that you told me. Why didn’t you tell me everything? I pray that if and when you get into another relationship you would allow your life to be an open book. I pray that before you even cross that bridge that you seek God and repent from your wicked ways.

It’s not okay to be unapologetic when you have literally hurt people.

You are arrogant and you are prideful and it’s only a matter of time before you reap the harvest that you have sown.

In response to the note that you left on my bed that day the police officer stood by while you backed your bags.

Every single one of those memories was a lie. The relationship that we had was a lie because you weren’t honest when I was honest and open with you. I gave you the kind of love that the Bible talks about in 1 Corinthians 13 and you did not show the same kind of love back to me.

You couldn’t love me like Christ loves the church. You couldn’t be gentle towards me like the Bible commands. You were not the man that I had been praying for, you were not the man that I am to live the rest of my life with and I know this because you tried to take my life.

I will not be a martyr. I will not die by the hands of someone I loved all for the sake of bringing awareness to domestic violence.

Know that I will get through this.

Know that I am a survivor.

Know that I am resilient.

Know that I will rise again and when I do you will be the enemy that God has made for my feet to rest upon.

You may have gotten away this time, but vengeance is of the Lord and he will take care of you.

 

 

 

 

*Names have been changed in order to protect the people mentioned.

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Christian Single Mama Supports | Morinda for Cancer Patients

Feb. 2, 2017 was my mom’s last day of chemotherapy!

Praise God! Her chemo-journey wasn’t as bad as it could have been and she braved through it really well. Through other’s prayers and well wishes, and with the help of her medicine and supplement, she’s on the road to recovery.

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40 Days Of Prayer | Day Three

Pray and ask God that your would enjoy this journey called Motherhood.


Dear Lord,

Thank you for this amazing opportunity and blessing to be a mother. I could not have asked for something so valuable to ever happen to me. I love being Gia’s mom. She is definitely a gift from you.

I pray that I would be content in this part of my motherhood journey. I pray that I would make the most of the time that I am spending with just her and I. My heart breaks because she is starting to realize that she does not have a dad. I pray that you would send the man that is to be my husband and who is to her dad soon.

I pray that when he comes that I would know him . Until then, help us Lord. I know that you ARE her good good Father! I know that you are bigger than any earthly man with the title “Father”. I know that you love her and I so much more than any man ever could. Thank you Lord.

I pray that you would give me the strength to be the best mom that I can be for my child. I thank you for providing for us, I thank you for keeping us safe. You truly are everything that we need.

Lord, please watch over the mother reading this right now. You know what is on her heart and mind today. You know what she needs. I pray that you would meet her right where she is at. I pray that you would let her know that she is a good mom and a blessed mom. I pray that you would give her the strength and the energy to press on when she wants to give up. I thank you for her. I thank you for her child/ren.  I pray for protection over them.

We thank you God and we ask that all of these things be done in Jesus name, amen.

40 Days Of Prayer| Day Two

Pray and ask God that you would have a divine encounter today.


Dear Lord,

I pray that I would encounter you today in such a way that I have never before. I pray that I would be alert to your presence. I pray for those struggling to find their purpose in life.  I pray that you would turn the light bulb on and that they would have an idea about what they are put on this earth for. I pray for the mama that may be having a difficult time with her child/ren today God. Meet her where she is at, let her know that she is not alone, let her know that everything is going to be OK. I pray that you would give her the strength to push through. I pray that you would dry her tears. I pray that you would hear her cry. I pray that you would be near that single mama today God. Be everything that she needs. Sit with her Lord. Protect her from all harm and danger. Order her steps dear God. Lead her in the way that she should go. Lord I thank you for what you are doing and for what you’ve already done. Although we are only in day 2 of our 40 Days of Prayer, we have been praying everyday for the last week and we know that we are closer to you today than before. We thank you God. We love that you are so faithful. You are near to all those who call on you and we have been doing just that. Thank you God. We ask all of these things in Jesus name. Amen.

40 Days Of Prayer| Day One

Pray and ask God to help you manage your time.


Dear God,

I thank you Lord for this time that I have right now to pray. I thank you for the time that the person reading this has for them to take a break and relax. I thank you for not being like humans at all! Unlike me or my friends, you are always on time. Thank you Lord for NEVER changing no matter what the time. You are so good and so worthy of our praise.

Lord, I pray that you would help me to use my time wisely. I pray that you’d also help me to be alert and not get overwhelmed or lazy. I pray that I would be productive and know when it’s time to rest.

Your word says that there is a time for everything. So I pray that I would be aware of the time at all times. The time in a spiritual sense as well as  literally.

I pray for my friend reading this, I pray that you would change the way that they utilize their time. I pray that they would be productive as well as know when to rest.

We thank you Lord and we ask all of these things in Jesus name, Amen.

40 Days of Prayer

Today, March 6, we will be starting our 40 Days of Prayer!

Over the next 40 Days I want my life to change DRASTICALLY!  I don’t want to be the same. I need the Lord so bad. I so tired of praying for the same things.

It is time to get serious about our relationship with God.

The word says to seek him first and everything else will be added.

So I am putting my trust in the Lord totally.

I know that God is able to turn things around, and even if he doesn’t right now, he is still good!

Mama, I am praying that you would join me. I am praying that the Holy Spirit would tug on your heart. Sometimes we just don’t have the words to say and I understand that, and  God knows your heart, but let’s try.

Let’s be intentional in our prayer time for the next 40 days. Let’s pray for ourselves and for the country that you live in. Let’s pray and hope for a change in our lives as well as the the lives of those around us.

In Jesus name!


The 40 Days of Prayer Calendar lines up with the March Prayer Journal Prompts so that you are focused and are on the same track.

 

March Prayer Journal | Family 

For the month of March let’s focus our prayer time on these specific topics. Today’s topic is “Family”.


Dear Lord,

Thank you for my family. Thank you for my parents. They’ve always tried to do their best when raising me. I pray that in that regard, I could do the same for Gia. I pray for my sister. I pray that you would meet her needs. I pray for my mother,  that you’d touch her body and dry up the cancer. Give her the strength to make it through this part of her life. I pray for my blood family that lives near and far. We are all going through something. I pray that you’d be everything that they’d need. I pray for the family of Christ. I pray that you’d help us to turn from our sinful ways. I pray that you’d help us to humble ourselves as well as stand up boldly to sin. I pray for my sister or brother reading this,  touch their heart dear God. Renew their mind and strengthen their spirit. I pray that you would fill every void in their life. I thank you for them. Bless them.

In Jesus name, amen.