March Prayer Journal | Trust

For the month of March let’s focus our prayer time on these specific topics. Today’s topic is “Forgiveness “.

Dear Lord,

Forgive me for my sins. For the ones that I know that I am doing and consistently do, help me to repent and to not do them anymore. Forgive me for the sins that I commit and do not realize is a sin. Open my eyes and correct my steps, in Jesus name.

Lord, help me to forgive others. Your word tells me that if I do not forgive those who have sinned against me, that you would not forgive me.

Help me to forgive myself. Time after time after time I screw up and I miss the mark that I have set for myself. I know that your standards are the only standards that matter.

I pray for the person reading this today. Give them the strength to practice forgiveness as well. Heal their broken hearts. Wash them white as snow. Forgive them for their sins. Help them to repent and never do them again.

I pray that we would be great examples to our children and that we would live lifes before them in a way that is pleasing to you.

I ask that all these things be done according to your will.

In Jesus name.



Mama2Mama| Forgiveness

Mama2Mama was meant to be a YouTube series that I posted every Monday and eventually it will be, but for now the written word is just as important as the spoken word.

In my younger years – which isn’t that long ago, I’m only 26 – I used to practice forgiveness often. If someone did me wrong, I thought, oh well, I forgive them and move on, sometimes reconciling and sometimes cutting that person out of my life. However, now I find it so much harder to forgive.

I believe it’s because now I am very up front, I tell people how I am and I draw up my boundaries and basically tell people how it is, in the nicest way possible. Then after that, if someone was to do me wrong, I’d harden my heart towards them and cut them off and move on. I thought, you know me, so why would you hurt me like that? Yet, that attitude and way of life wasn’t working for me. The weight of a hardened heart became to heavy for me to bear.

Not only that, but my fear of the Lord grew and I began to understand that in order to please God that I have to obey his commandments.

Matthew 6:14-15 

For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Here, we are met with a commandment and a promise.

Commandment: Forgive others who sin against you.

Promise: If you do not forgive, God will not forgive you.

Talk about a wake up call!

My first reaction to this verse was:

Lord, you mean I have to forgive my lying baby daddy? You mean I have to forgive my ex fiance who physically and emotionally hurt me? You mean I have to forgive my parents for not feeding me with a silver spoon? 

And the Lord replied with a yes, read Matthew 6:14-15 again.

I mean, God’s word is very clear. Either you forgive as you have been told to, or you don’t forgive which means your sins will not be forgiven. And I don’t know about you but I need ALL of my sins forgiven.

I understand that Paul thinks that he is the worst sinner ( 1 Tim. 1:15) , but girl, let me tell you.. Paul can’t touch this. I am sin-sin-sinner! And if had not been for the Lord on my side, I have a couple of ideas about where I would be. That’s why I am so grateful for the blood of Jesus washing away my sins. I need it! I need him! Therefore, yes, I will allow God to soften my heart. Yes, I will forgive those who sin against me, because 1. God says so 2. I want my sins forgiven and 3. because I want to be like Christ and that’s what Christ has done for me.

So Mama, I encourage you to forgive those who have sinned against you. Forgive them today. Even if you don’t tell them to their face that you forgive them, forgive them in your heart. Allow God to soften your heart. Confess your sins to God and ask him to forgive you. Also consider forgiving yourself. Forgive yourself for dealing with such people. Forgive yourself for not obeying God’s word the first time. Forgive. Forgive. Forgive!

Meditate (focus)  on this and have a good night.

Ephesians 4:32 

32 Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Love you friend!

Musical Mondays | “Start Over”

This has to be one of my favorite songs!

For me, it acts as a reminder that I have the choice to either carry my past on shoulder or I can start over.

A little less than a year, I decided that I was going to start over in the area of relationships with the opposite sex. I want to be with someone that is going to be able to give me 100% and that is going to love me like Christ loves the church.

I was tired of sinning and disobeying God’s word. I was tired of being that side piece, or in a relationship that wasn’t going to go anywhere. I had a baby out of wedlock because of bad choices that I made. And for a while I let the sin of fornication really weigh me down.

But God said, “Let go the everyone that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,  fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith” (Heb. 12:1-2). 

And while I am not perfect. I have started on this race to get closer to God as I am waiting on my husband-to-be. I’ve let go of that sin and I am running, I am running with my eyes on Jesus because I know that I will find exactly what… or who.. I’ve been waiting and desiring for.

I’m so glad that God gave me grace and mercy so that I can start over.

If God is able to do it for me, he can do it for you too. Amen?